I have had several conversations in the recent past which left me thinking, what if God made me different than I am? Would I be better? It is a very human-like thought to have, because what exactly are we comparing ourselves to except other imperfect people? Part of the reason I named my blog The WONKY Wife was because I wanted to celebrate my differences. It’s okay for me to be a little bit different than everyone else as long as I follow God’s intentions for my life.
Which brings me to this: God is intentional. He does not make mistakes, because He is God. Almighty, all powerful, and perfect in every way. When God created me in the womb (Psalm 139:13), he intentionally made my heart and my mind. He made me bold, caring, loyal, adventurous, brave, and compassionate. And he made me so that I hate evil and wrong doings. (Romans 12:9) He made me different because he wanted me to be different.
“God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” Numbers 23:19
Just one of the many things that sparked this thought, was the fact that I am absolutely INCAPABLE of remaining silent when wrong is going unnoticed. I have been told that it’s better to keep your mouth shut, go with the flow, do what you’re told and don’t stir up trouble. They want me to accept that “that’s just the way it is”. However, in my mind, just because it’s the way things have been does not mean that’s the way things should stay.
I have cried many tears to my husband over this. Every scenario we went through seemed like a hopeless outcome. I finally felt angry and said, “So WHY does God lay this hopelessness at my feet and cause me to feel?!!? Why can’t He just turn my mind off so that I accept the bad that courses through this world as ‘just the way it is’?? If there is nothing I can do, then why make me this way?”
Garrett says that is one of the many consequences of living in a fallen world so full of sin and selfishness. But I still wanted to know what God thinks about my passions for good.
“Learn to do good; seek justice, correct oppression; bring justice to the fatherless, plead the widow’s cause.” Isaiah 1:17
So, does this mean that I should stir up trouble? No. But it does tell me that God has a purpose for me. He made me stubborn and passionate for a reason. I have to figure out how to use that passion for God’s glory. Everything changes when you make the decision to seek God. He protects me, guards me, encourages me and never leaves my side. I have comfort when I am surrounded by all of the UNcomfortable things in this world.
“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith.” Galatians 6:9-10
So, how can you use your passions to be a vessel for God?
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